Maybe it is better if I don't discuss your letter, but try to forget with you and recall the previous time. There is only one thing that I would like to tell you in regard to your last letter. I am very thankful that you convinced Anni to write me again. You can imagine how I felt after receiving the letters from Italy (of which you obviously know), and how glad I was that we were writing each other again. And I want to get back to you on another subject, which has been a long time ago, but hasn't been forgotten. I want to thank you for what you have been to me during the mountain trip. It was a difficult time for me, and I felt very lonely. I didn't get any sympathy from the other girls, but only trouble that this awful tension happened. While the boys (Werner being at the head) had a tremendous fury against Anni and tried to arouse me against her. You were the only one who showed consideration and tried to help me. I have remembered that and I do appreciate it.
Great that now you finally have the permit. When is it time to go? Do you know already from where you will be leaving? It is really bleak how Germany becomes empty of people. When one considers that all the people that are being written to, to all countries and parts of the world who have been living in the same town three to four years ago, and we see that these migrations become bigger and worse, then one can see the effects the Nazis have. Even the people I like, start to emigrate; Hitler makes sure that nothing and nobody stays back in Germany that I would want to long to return to, or that going away would make me sad. How terrible though for the unfortunate ones who have to stay back in Germany! One cannot think about it, otherwise there would only be hate feelings growing within oneself. I am really not sure what I would do if it would start 'over there'. I know certainly well what I would have to do, but if one would go with the flow in the decisive moment? Be glad that you are a girl and don't know the lust which is shown in violence. Because with us it is the opposite than with you, the feeling tells us: Strike! and it is the mind that keeps us back. (I recently tried to explain these things to Mrs. Pollatz, you can imagine her outrage.)
I haven't gotten any further with my American affairs. The Ohio College sent me a form which I had to have filled out by my last teacher. My math teacher sent it back to me now, but it is filled out with mistakes. He marked all the questions with the best answer and on top of that a most polite general judgment. Also with that, I received the day before yesterday the copy of a recommendation, which a U.P.-man has sent for me to Ohio. This U.P- man has been late, which he felt very uncomfortable. He tried to make up for it by writing a most favorable recommendation about me. He described me with character traits, of which I haven't discovered myself yet. For example I speak, read and write German, English, French, and Dutch, as well as some knowledge in Spanish, Italian and Russian. I am a young man of splendid Christian character, who does not drink. I have been an active Quaker for 12 years(!) and have always been head of the class at school, and so forth in this style over two typed pages long. In addition he has asked a United States Governor, as well as the president of the U.P. to write recommendations; the people will have a good impression of me, as long as they don't know me. I'm only afraid that these recommendations are too good, and unbelievable, but it seems to be common practice in America. Well, hopefully it will help some. In addition there is still the French issue, and it was promised to my sister that she will have the determining answer in 14 days. They probably will give her the same promise again in another 14 days...
Now a request: When Kaethe Juergens was here I organized for her the report of your Easter conference, but afterwards I haven't seen her nor the report anymore. Can you write me your report? I will type it then for myself, and will return it to you again. It means a lot to me. In addition I want to write about it to Berlin as well.
How do you like the picture? I find it very good, even if it isn't very similar. Do you want more copies of it?
With hearty greetings!
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